那只是个假象

我的脸常常给一些刚认识我的人一些假象，好比说斯文？乖巧？文静？没脾气？千金小姐？总之就是跟不雅的动作和词汇搭不上边的乖乖牌。

那些人真是大错特错！

我问过一些朋友，我给人的第一影响是什么，回答都差不多如下：

我：诶，我给人的第一印象是什么？
友：看起来很乖。
我：天哪，我最讨厌听到这个！除了这个还有什么？
友：很斯文，不爱说话。
我：……=.=

不是我讨厌别人说我斯文乖巧，只是我觉得我不属于那种性格，所以我觉得很奇怪。

我的性格其实很简单，没有那种耍忧郁的倾向。咳，我承认可能有时候有，但那种情况只有在我不想说话的时候才会发生。

我很直率，我不喜欢拐弯抹角，除了有时候真的有必要不那么坦率，通常我说话都是一针见血，而且还是血流不止那种。当然我的家人姐妹朋友们已经习惯了，习惯我的直率和毒舌。囧

别怪我说话太直接，只是在一些时候我不喜欢浪费时间在说一堆不是重点的东西，直接点出重点不是很好吗？虽然口水不用钱，但是我还是不想浪费。

我知道有些人不喜欢我说话太直接，我了解，你们只是因为不开心我把事实点破让你们看清真相，而那个真相伤害了你们自以为很脆弱的玻璃心，说真的我很抱歉，但是我还是不觉得我有什么问题。

我就是我，我只想做好我自己，不想为了任何东西变得不像自己。

唔……好像有点偏离主题了。回到正题。

不要说我文静，我很叽喳，而且讲到兴起还会越来越大声。

不要说我斯文，我时常疯疯癫癫地玩，疯疯癫癫地大笑，而且是笑到飙泪，呼吸不到和边笑边狂打身边任何一个人。当然这种情况只有在和比较熟的朋友的情况下才会发生。

总结上面两个，不要以为我不会发脾气，我脾气暴躁，我只要一被惹怒就可以送你几句不动听的话，好像 shxt , fxck yxx 之类的。我不擅长骂这些，因为我的专长是骂人不带脏字，好比说“你没带你的脑出来？哦我忘了你没脑。”，这是我认为杀伤力普普通通的。囧

不要说我看起来成绩很好，你都说看起来了，是呗？也不是说我成绩差，我只是对读书没兴趣。没兴趣到考试也猫在电脑前上网，累了就倒头大睡，闷了就出去喝茶。当然这些都是对那些没兴趣的科目才会做的事情，虽然我有兴趣的科目也就那几科。

总之，这些“第一印象”都不是属于我真正的个性。如果这些感觉出现的时候，只有一个可能性----我很认真地在发呆。

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你让我无法自拔

刚刚消化了Stephenie Meyer's Twilight Saga 的第3本小说 --- Eclipse.

又是一个让我看书看到忘记了时间的晚上。

本来是打算睡觉了的，结果越看越上瘾，到最后干脆直接把整本内容吞完。这是为了防止我像昨天一样早早关灯等着入睡但是脑海里又一直思索着下一章节的剧情发展而导致我躺在床翻来覆去睡不着觉而数着永远无法顺顺利利数完的绵羊和看着电话上显示的时间越来越迟才发现我真的时候睡觉了但是又再重复以上发生过的事情然后继续度过失眠的夜晚。

*吸气!*以上的句子有点太长，本人没喘口气就一股劲的蹦出这些字而导致呼吸有点不顺畅。如果你想要试一试的话请自备氧气罩，囧

不小心离题了，继续。

就这样一直循环，坦白说我还真不知道我到底是什么时候入睡。

我看这系列的书应该有差不多3个月了，平均一个月看一本，这种速度还不是普通的慢，囧

现在我很想接着看第四本 -- Breaking Dawn。

但是这本小说在我姐姐房里静静的躺着，而我姐姐已经锁上房门呼噜呼噜的睡觉了。（注：有没有打鼾我是不知道啦！A_A噗～）我也不想冒着随时被枕头或拖鞋之类东西砸中的生命危险进她的房间，只好等到早上了，T_T

p/s：我以为我写完这一篇我会开始有点睡意，但是我发现并没有，而且我发现我也饿了，囧

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谁来把我打晕？

天哪，我的肚子好不舒服！确切的说应该是“我的胃好不舒服！”。

胃胀气，已经持续了一两天了，可是好像昨天变严重了。它竟然让我不舒服到半夜不能入睡，一直到早上6点多才睡着！接着我9点多就醒来了，可想而知，我现在最想做的事情就像我标题说的那样。谁来把我打晕？我好想要好好睡一觉～

昨天2点就爬上床准备睡觉，可是因为不舒服睡不着，就爬起来玩电脑。玩了一下，实在是没东西做，我又回去睡觉，结果又睡不着，再次爬起来玩电脑，一直这样重复了3次。=.="

到最后我索性看戏来看，反正都睡不着了，干脆找点事情做算了。看到了早上5点，我惊觉自己真的要睡一下了。躺在床上翻来翻去，我还是睡不着，因为很累却一直睡不着的我早那时候已经接近暴走的状态了。

开了电话的收音机来听，听着流行歌曲，我发现到那让我更睡不着，因为会一直想哼着唱，囧

关了收音机，大概再翻了半个小时，我才迷迷糊糊地睡着了。

我在想，我今天下午会不会在昏迷中度过？囧

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I'm Evil

Hey guys , is it this tittle nice ? XD

I dyed my hair and bleach it up !! This was my first time dye colour hair , is it too plucky to dye this colour ? XD

RED , RED , RED

Seriously i shocked by my hair , really so red , different with my imagine , but anyway , this colour i also like =D


My hair after bleach , GOLD HAIR ~ is it nice ? nice ? nice ? nice ? I LOVE THIS COLOUR !! XD



While colouring -- Did my head look like after accident ? BLOODY =S


After finish dye. This picture look not so light , click here


PS : GOLD HAIR , wait me !!!! XD

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Facts and Eloquent

I wrote in my status , " I've not stay at there for 2 months more , WHAT THE HELL to you all still can gossip about me ? and DISTORT THE FACT. I said don't tell anyone , you did it , nevermind. But you distort what i have said. You so fake you know ? FUCK YOU , you totally pissing me off."




If you got add my facebook account , maybe you know what i'm gonna say at here.


This really weird , as i said , I have leave there more than 2 months , and now I at KL which place is separated by a South China Sea with that place. Although i at KL , but I still can become famous topic in some groups of people , should i happy for your all discussion ?


You said i told anyone what you told me , i admit i just got said out one part , I DARE TO DO IT , I DARE TO ADMIT IT. I deny you said i told others about our conversation , because i really NEVER DO IT.


When i asked back you why you told your friends what I told you , you DENY , you deny that you never told other people , you deny that you didn't told your friends. How great this answer , but I heard all this things is CAME OUT FROM YOUR FRIEND'S MOUTH. This shows , YOU DARE TO DO IT , YOU DON'T DARE TO ADMIT IT.


I think i got told you , i knew all this things few days ago , but when i knew this , i just ignore all of this , because i don't trust you will do this to me , you promise me you won't say out , and I thought we are friends , so i trust you.


When i know you said out all the things , I'm dissapointed. Some things are distorted , so i should explain for myself. The explanation i used, is REAL. I dislike the girl is because WHAT YOU HAD TOLD ME.


But now , everything goes wrong , I become the bad girl who DESTROY OTHER FRIENDSHIP. I'm THE ONE whose say out our conversation , is me , not US. Look , how good this experience. I'm a bad girl now , so , FUCK YOU for what you had done.


Honestly , when i knew some things became bad , i felt guilty. I thought i shouldn't said out anything just let you all blame me , maybe i just act like a dumb or pretend like i don't know anything , because I don't wanna start a fight.


But just now , you come interrogated me , this really WEIRD.

You said out all the things , I just let it pass and don't wanna start a fight , so I act like don't know.
However , I just said out the thing because i need to use it to be my explanation , and this is because of YOU I just need to explain , and you come interrogated me.

What the hell you come interrogated me first ? Is it because what you have done exposure , so you wanna put all the blame on me ? Or you wanna maintain your friendship , so don't dare to say out the truth ? It's ok if you wanna do like that , I don't mind. You don't want to recognition what you had done , I also don't know what should I do.


I still got friends who trust me won't do like that , I don't care what you said.


I just know now I do not feel guilty for it , even though a bit , NO. Because you more overly.

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I'm back =D

Almost 2 months i didn't update my blog , I'm still alive , I just lazy update my blog ~ heheh

New layout for my blog !! *clap .. maybe the new layout will make me like to update my blog , but there's just MAYBE. XD

I come KL start my new life more than one month already , accurate to say , is 2 months 1 day.

Everything fine at here , but i just always felt that something missing ..

Seriously , I miss Labuan ..


I miss all my friends at there
I miss the time when i'm in secondary
I miss the time crazy with my friends
I miss the time we driving without a purpose
I miss the time when we go out play
I miss the time we laugh about somethings loudly


I know KL is much more better than Labuan , but I just miss there , I just miss it badly. =(


p/s - I won't regret what i've decided. I just will compete the purpose that made me come here. =D

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Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief

刚刚去电影院看了 "Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief".


不错看的一部电影，里面的Logan Lerman好帅 ~ A_A

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故事簡介

二男一女挑戰連眾神都難以解決的神秘事件！

老是惹來不斷麻煩的問題少年Percy Jackson（Logan Lerman飾演），以為他人生危機僅止於一次又一次的退學危機，沒想到還有更多麻煩等著他，而這一切原來都跟他的“身世”有關！

原來自己是海神波塞頓與 凡人女子生下的後代。希臘神話中的眾神與怪獸突然現身於他的面前，眾神之神－宙斯Zeus更指控他偷了“閃電火”，並限他在10天之內必須歸還。

出發前即使神諭告誡他“將被朋友背叛…最後的任務終將失敗”，但Percy仍然啟程並展開這場史上最驚心動魄的尋找任務，因為他必須揪出真正的小偷，才能揭開邪惡叛亂的陰謀。他能阻止這場一觸即發的戰爭嗎？！

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我承认我一进电影院有点害怕，都是之前那部泰国鬼片"Coming Soon" ~ =.=


p/s：
在电影院看戏我就不能忍受的就是某些人唧唧喳喳的声音，他们严重干扰我的兴致。=(

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Fireworks

Hey ~ I'm back , more than one week i didn't update my blog.


No other reason , just one word , LAZY , and i have no idea i want to update what theme , so i just let my blog become silence.


So, today i just come here simply say something to update my blog .. XD


I have move to my house at KL few days ago , my room is kinda hot , but still ok , at least not let me bone-dry .. XD


By the way , KL weather is killing me , DAMN HOT !!


Now is 01:09 a.m. , and i'm still hearing the non-stop fireworks sound. The fireworks sound shocked me and cars , LOL.


My room windows have a nice view to see fireworks. Just open the curtains , i can see the fireworks in my front.


I know that fireworks is beautiful , but , i wanna to rest , the fireworks sound is polluting my ears. =(

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Leaving =(

ok , well ~ This post i gonna use english to write it , because today i didn't have the feeling to write in chinese ..


So , this is my first english post , enjoy my broken english .. XD


Today i gonna flight to KL to celebrate chinese new year and continue study at there .


I feel happy because i long time didn't back to KL already , i can go there shopping and continue study at there . But , i feel sad too because i need to depart my friends , isn't that contradictions ? ya i think so. =(


···6.30 a.m.

Wake up in the early morning , and i just not enough sleep !! super tired . >.<

See , inside my bag , there is a pillow at there .. LOL .. I really hate the plane seat that always make my neck pain !! Orh yarh , i also hate the boat seat =.=

8 luggage , 2 laptop @@

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Now , I'm at my relatives house.


Thanks for those who came to airport in the morning , i will upload those picture at facebook =)


I didn't cry at that time , i SWEAR ~ XD

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离别的开始

今天早上和中午都去了机场送机，独自送走了3个朋友，怪孤单的。


中午送走最后一个朋友后一个人静静的走回车上开车回家，那种滋味真的不好受。


一直在想，不知道下一次见面是什么时候了 =(


朋友一个接一个的走了，剩下两天就轮到我了。

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这就叫做后悔莫及

这几天我一直很烦恼一件事，就是我前面平到不行的刘海 >.<|||。


剪了之后我才知道什么叫做后悔莫及 TT_TT。




虽然我不是很讨厌这个刘海，可是剪了几天了，我还没能完全适应它。因为我还真的是第一次顶着一个平到没得再平的刘海在额头上。


这个刘海的好处就是让很懒惰每天帮自己头发分边的我很容易的就打理好它，还有就是让我变得可爱，这个是我自己说的，算吗？哇哈哈哈


有人说这个平平的刘海适合我，有人说我是椰子头（好吧我承认，我不喜欢这个…XD），有人说上一次的分边刘海比较适合我，两极化的意见出现了，而本人这几天脑袋都处于空白，一直在安慰自己会长回的 >.<


现在我只能希望这个刘海能在新年之前变长，就算一点也好 T_T

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运动细胞

我的运动细胞真的不是很好，你叫我跑，我跑不快，你叫我跳高，我也跳不高，你叫我跳远，我可以走几步给你看 XD


唯一一项运动我能掌握得比较好的的就只有羽毛球。


从小学开始我就一直在参加羽毛球的训练，代表班级，代表学校。可是直到上了中学，我完全荒废了，哇哈哈～不是我不想继续这个运动，是羽毛球社永远都在爆满，没位子让我加入，=.=


直到最近又开始和朋友一起租一个场地，开始打羽毛球了。


可是我发现了一个让我不能无视的事实，我的动作迟钝了很多，真的是岁月催人老？XD

打球时的招牌动作，单手插腰 =D

自恋的最高境界，打球的时候发现镜头还能马上对着镜头摆pose..XD

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自己把自己累垮

又隔了好久没来更新了，不是没时间，只是这几天一直忙着玩，所以懒惰上来更新。=D


昨天早上和朋友一起回学校看看，终于发现到之前我姐和我哥说的那种“生锈的汗臭味”是什么了…XD～之前我还在读书的时候被他们这么一说，心情就会非常的不好，因为那种汗臭味是自己嗅不出来的，当我回到学校的时候，闻着整间学校飘着的那种怪异的味道，我终于明白了~LOL


去了学校过后也去了海边，一起吃了午餐，还很突然的决定晚上在朋友家过夜。


晚上我们一起看了那部泰国鬼片Coming Soon。说真的，看完了之后，原本在还没看的时候那种期待的心情完全没了。我一直认为这部片子会把我吓到不敢一个人睡觉，会让我疑神疑鬼，可是我只能说这部片子对我来说非常没有爆点，除了几个突然出现的镜头让我“啊！”了一声，其余的都没感觉。这是我第一次看鬼片这么快就能忘记里面的情节。


看完了鬼片就回楼上睡觉了，说是睡觉，不如说是继续聊天、打闹。好吧，我承认打闹的只有我一个人，让大家都不够睡，真是不好意思了，A_A噗～


今天一早就起来去吃了个早餐，吃完了早餐就回家了，继续玩继续睡觉。睡醒了又去海边吃satay，今天的风真的很大，吹到我都站不稳了，哈哈哈


连续两天出去，除了让我精神不济，我的钱包也破了个大洞..TT_TT

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迟来的第一更

已经一个星期多没更新这里了，不是我遗忘了这里，而是我懒惰上来写文章。


这篇是2010年的第一更，我发现在这新的一年，我的脑袋里一点灵感都没有，所以我根本找不到任何方向来这里写文章，可是因为被几个人催了，问我为什么没有来更新（哪，我来更新了 XD），所以我选择来这里说说最近发生的事情。


自从2009年30号开始，一直延续到昨天，我几乎每天都有和朋友在一起，不管是家里还是外面。我发现到有了驾照之后，真的是很方便的事情，想去哪就能去哪，哇哈哈…


除了和朋友出去玩，剩余的时间我都在家里睡觉，吃饭，上网…一直这样反反复复地重复着这样‘规律’的生活，很有可能会熬出病来。


前几天和朋友一起去打羽毛球了，那时候我才发现我的体力真的不如从前了，累就算了，还因为太久没运动的关系，全身酸痛。想要弯腰捡地上的东西，必须整个人出现折叠的形状（就是在脚站直的情况下弯腰）才可以把东西捡起来。



越来越靠近和朋友们分开的日子了，每天都在倒数，从49天的倒数，到现在剩下34天的倒数，时间真的很快，我不知道我在这15天里都做了什么@@。有几个朋友看到我的倒数，就和我说不要再倒数了，因为那样会感觉时间会过到很快，可是我就是喜欢这样，这样才会好好珍惜还没分开前的日子 =]

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